I Am Not a Blogger

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Here’s a little bit of everything to catch you up, people.

2014 has been pretty great so far. We’ve been able to have some fun as a family in the unpredictable Florida weather, we’ve eaten a ghastly amount of cookies. I’ve learned-slash-admitted a few more things about myself. It’s been like having tiny lightbulbs flicker on while I do laundry or take a shower or talk to someone (I’m an external processor all.the.way.). It’s been a month of mini-epiphanies. Nothing huge or world-rocking, more just “hmmm, ya, I think that’s true/good/ok”.

Some of my gleanings:

-I am horrible at waking up.

-I am a professional guilt-carrier.

-The shared freedom in both of the above reminders is the realization that sleep is SUPER important to me (this is one of those “duh” kind of ideas, but my stubborn brain has tried to convince me that I can still run on four hours of sleep–a la college days–and happily take care of a family the next morning) aaaand that guilt sucks. It’s just stupid. And I tend to feel it most about things that truly don’t matter, like whether or not I woke up early in January. Fugget about it.

-Cookies made with oatmeal and applesauce–never mind what else is in them–are completely acceptable for breakfast. And your children will love you.

-People are walking miracles. Cue the sappy music, but c’mon! Good grief. Tons of miracles walking around. Seeing this truth is slowly growing a longer pause in my unthinking and graceless words.

-I complain. Even if it isn’t always out loud. It’s grody. The seeing miracles and living in and living out grace thing, though, gives me far fewer reasons to whine.

-I’ve been reading more and writing a little less. Not on purpose, it’s just worked out that way.

-I really love reading and I really love writing.

This podcast, listened to in three parts–while cooking dinner, cleaning up, and after kids were tucked in for the night–was so well timed that I goofy-grinned while shredding cheese that evening. I’m not a blogger. I love reading blogs and I love writing them, but I’m not a blogger. I am a writer. Even saying those words, thinking them, typing them out, makes me feel arrogant (or like I’m setting myself up for embarrassment), but I think it’s true. No matter what weird phases I’ve gone through, those two things, reading and writing, have been my constants.

-Blogs with tips, projects, and daily posts are amazing. I love visiting them and have learned some wonderful things from them, but I can’t do it. I’m far too flighty and forgetful to write something worth reading every day. Aaaand exhale…I did it. I admitted that I am not “good” at blogging. I don’t have a writing schedule or tons of helpful advice. And, when I have time to write in the evenings, all I really want to do is read, sleep, talk or watch The West Wing (we’re on Season 3 in case you’re wondering–pleated pants and shoulder pads for days).

-I don’t know what this blog will become or if it will fizzle out entirely. I never say never anymore. For now, I’ll keep reading, talking, and writing. I don’t know what about, but if I think it’s worth sharing, you’ll hear about it. Promise. Just as soon as I finish ooone more episode of West Wing.

Oh, and the “goal” for February is to be extra aware of and picky about what’s going on our calendar. Making space for that Philippians 4:8 stuff.

Thankfulness

I feel a bit unprepared to share my thankfulness today. You see, yesterday was an awful day in the Cox House. As my husband and I said aloud after he tucked the girls into bed for the night, “It was just a bad day”. There was no salvaging it or trying to find the good. It wasn’t fun. It just sucked.

So, here’s what I’m thankful for this morning. What I can share with you through a cheek-full of disappointed yet hopeful tears. I am so grateful for:

-Grace.

-Mercy.

-Hope.

They are the gift, the relief, the pushing onward, the only things that make any sense of the craziness of this sometimes unfathomable life. They are the wholeness in all that is broken.

Have an adventure somewhere in this day, folks…let loose and be real in all the hope that we have.

Thankfulness and some other stuff…

Today, we sprung a surprise zoo trip on the Girlies.

I’m so thankful for:

-Kiddos in love with creation.

-Sweet grandparents far and near who care for and spoil their grandchildren in so many wonderful ways.

-The astounding number of species that exist in our world. We only saw a drop in the bucket today and I was actually on the verge of tears at one point. “It’s so *sniff* *sniff* beautiful.” (P.S. I’m one hundred percent sure I’m not pregnant right now, so erase that thought from your mind.)

Here’s the “other stuff”:

If you read a couple of weeks ago, I apologized for my absence of late. Not much has changed. Still trying to figure out what life will look like if we/I pursue things like homeschooling, adoption, and some other things I won’t talk too much about right now. I have lots of blog posts in my head and some even written out on paper! There is some refining that needs to be done to much of their content, though. My words tend to come out a little hot at first and simmer down with a few nights’ sleep and revisiting. They’re coming. Promise. Just not sure when.

One more little snippet for you. IF: LOCAL. If you haven’t heard of it, learn about it. If you have and you’re as excited as I am, REGISTER!!! If you’re in Jacksonville, FL (or a neighbor!) and want to join together with some other awesome ladies, keep your eyes peeled for details. (That’s one of those things I’m pursuing right now…gotta get us gals a building!).

Love you. Mean it. For real. Happy Thursday.

Thankful Thursday

This week we are over-the-moon happy and thankful for:

-cool(er) weather!

-jackets

-happy little girls/sister-friends

-old friends

-new friends

-the sounds of toddler conversations and little feet running around upstairs

-apple crisp. glory. hallelujah.

What are you thankful for this week?

Thankful Thursday

I just love alliteration, don’t you? A few months ago, we started keeping a gratitude journal. It’s in a basket on our kitchen table, ready for anyone to add their own bit of thankfulness, from the great to the seemingly mundane. We’ve added everything from sunsets at the beach, to feeling God’s peace, to pet bunnies (of which our girls have none, but hope to one day own).

There have been weeks when it didn’t get touched and it shows. When our hearts aren’t being turned back to thankfulness, we tend to get a little, shall we say, “grouchy”. We’re firing it back up today!

Some things we’re grateful for this week:

-Feeding the geese by the pond out back

-Being up before the sun (it’s an acquired taste)

-New pencils

-Pulling jackets out of storage

-Italian sausage

-Getting to watch my sister dive into adulthood

-Tiny pumpkins held carefully by tiny hands

-White sheets

-A husband who doesn’t snore (one of his many, many wonderful qualities)

What are you thankful for this week?